Thursday, September 19, 2019
The Indian to His Love and The Hosting of the Sidhe The Aesthetic Movement, as exemplified by "The Indian to His Love," by W. B. Yeats, seems lifeless and insipid when compared to his "The Hosting of the Sidhe." The images of the two poems are so completely different that they almost demand a different set of rules dealing with their creation. It would be virtually impossible for Yeats to deal effectively with the subject matter of "The Hosting of the Sidhe" in the same manner as "The Indian to His Love" because he is viewing the world from a different perspective for each poem. There is little relationship between the characters of "The Indian to His Love" and those of "The Hosting of the Sidhe." In the former, Yeats deals exclusively with mortals, idealized perhaps, but nonetheless mortals who must deal with the world as mortals: "Here we will moor our lovely ship/ And wander ever with woven hands," and. "How we alone of mortals are." These characters are not only mortals, but are anonymous in that they have no personal identities, and there is no representation of them as individuals. The lovers seem to decorate the scene much as the "peahens" and the "parrot." Yeats does, however, remind the readers of the characters' mortality even while he makes them seem timeless. "How when we die our shades will rove" tells clearly that those mortals may be in a dream, but even this dream is destined to end. In "The Hosting of the Sidhe," in contrast to "The Indian and His Love," Yeats deals with the ... ...e the reader at all. On the other hand, in "The Hosting of the Sidhe," Yeats presents the ideal of life: immortals in a real world. Yeats wants the reader to feel the life in this poem, not just observe it. The poem reaches out and coaxes: "Away, come away:/ Empty your heart of its mortal dream." The world Yeats sees in each poem is completely different, and by choosing his words carefully and changing his style of writing, he allows readers to see that difference and to feel it. handouts home
Wednesday, September 18, 2019
John Steinbeck's 'The Chrysanthemums' and D.H. Lawrence's 'The Odour of Chrysanthemums' Women in the 1900s were given little attention. John Steinbeck and D.H Lawrence however have chosen to base their short stories on a single woman character and around a type of flower, which is the chrysanthemum. Though written by male writers, both stories give an insight of the feelings and actions of a female character in that time period and how chrysanthemums can mean an entirely different obsession towards the two main characters. John Steinbeck's 'The Chrysanthemums' is about a tinker who confronts Elisa Allen while she was working on her prized chrysanthemums. Elisa was impressed of the tinker's freedom and his way of life. The tinker offers his service, repairing pots and pans, to Elisa, but she refuses at first. However, the tinker does not give up and tells Elisa about a customer that would be interested in her chrysanthemums. Elisa's attitude instantly changed and after her discussion with tinker she finds some work for the tinker to work on. Elisa's husband, Henry, takes her out later to the city for dinner. To her dismay she finds her lovely chrysanthemums dumped by the roadside by the tinker. D.H Lawrence, however, writes about Elizabeth Bates and her children who wait for the return of Walter, husband and father, who is late in his homecoming. Elizabeth has a brief meeting with her father. Not waiting any longer, Elizabeth and her children have dinner. Elizabeth puts her children to sleep and then goes out to look for her husband. It turns out that the husband had an accident and is now dead. Elizabeth's mother in law visits her and together they clean the dead Walter, while reminiscing the past.... ...not be offered to strangers. However, in 'Odour of Chrysanthemums,' Elizabeth realises she has never really known Walter and is ashamed to handle him. She experiences fear for she is aware that she has no control over her destiny and that she cannot escape death. Both stories do not have a happy ending, but instead deal with different aspects of life. 'The Chrysanthemums' with society and trust, whereas 'Odour of Chrysanthemums' with fate and death. I feel that John Steinbeck offers a better ending because it teaches us not to trust strangers with ease and gives us the message that we should be happy with what we have, not to envy others. Then again, the ending in 'Odour of chrysanthemums' is also true but I feel that it is too harsh. It is a fact that every creature will encounter death but death should not be Elizabeth's or anyone's 'ultimate master.'
Tuesday, September 17, 2019
Report I Title: Jill Bolte Taylor's stroke of insight Link: http://www. ted. com/talks/jill_bolte_taylor_s_powerful_stroke_of_insight. html Speaker: Jill Bolte Taylor Affiliation: http://www. drjilltaylor. com Jill Bolte Taylor is a Harvard-trained and published neuroanatomist who dedicated her career to research into the severe mental illnesses. She had a stroke while she was researching about biological differences between healthy brains and brains of individuals diagnosed with schizophrenia, schizoaffective or bipolar disorder at1996.One of her blood vessel exploded on the left side of her brain and it caused the stroke. In the seminar, she explains her observations about the 4 hour after the stroke as a neuroanatomist. According to her experience she could not able to walk, talk read, write or recall any of her life. In this talk, initially she explains the major functions of the brain with a real human brain. Then she clarifies her stroke according to these functions. She tells the results of her bleeding step by step with examples and helps us to imagine a stroke.After all she finishes her speech with explaining her feelings after she survived and recovered. Beside Jill Bolte TaylorÃ¢â¬â¢s stroke of insight video, I watched videos about being happy Ã¢â¬Å"Dan Gilbert asks, Why are we happy? Ã¢â¬ , about intelligence of plants Ã¢â¬Å"Stefano Mancuso: The roots of plant intelligenceÃ¢â¬ and about brain damages Ã¢â¬Å"VS Ramachandran on your mindÃ¢â¬ . I generally watched the videos about brain and intelligence because I interested in the human intelligence and brain functions. Mr.GilbertÃ¢â¬â¢s talk showed me the effects of our psychological immune system to be happy, Mr. MancusoÃ¢â¬â¢s talk represented me the intelligence of plants which is similar to animalsÃ¢â¬â¢ and Mr. RamachandranÃ¢â¬â¢s talk helped me to illustrate the brain functions of human while he was talking about the brain damages. All of these topics were interesting but I mo stly interested in TaylorÃ¢â¬â¢s topic because she had a disease which is about her researches and she survived from it without any permanent damage. I liked to hear this neuroanatomy specialistÃ¢â¬â¢s own life experiments about brain disease.Favorite quotes and sentences: Ã¢â¬Å"I essentially became an infant in a womanÃ¢â¬â¢s body. Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"For those of you who understand computers, our right hemisphere functions like a parallel processor, while our left hemisphere functions like a serial processor. Ã¢â¬ About Jill Bolte TaylorÃ¢â¬â¢s stroke of insight video, I did not understand why and how she felt that she is in nirvana after she woke up after the surgery. I strongly recommend this video to the other students because it is one of the most interesting speech I have ever heard.
Monday, September 16, 2019
War on Coal Ã¢â¬Å"President Obama is responsible entirely for the closure of that mine and the loses of these jobsÃ¢â¬ , Robert Murray CEO of Murray Energy Corporation told CNN after 239 men were laid off because an Ohio mine had closed. The current war on coal is not one of just and fair reasons. Coal has several positive benefits that greatly outweigh the negative environmental effects that some say it causes. The main benefit of coal is the hundreds of thousands it employs annually. However, with the strict regulations being put on coal mines these days the tradition of coal mining may be one our children will never know.It is our responsibility as Americans to beat the Obama Administration and win the war on coal. Coal was first found in America in 1742 in what is now Boone County, West Virginia. Since then mining it has been a job that employs thousands and those thousands donÃ¢â¬â¢t get near the praise they deserve. Every time the man-trip goes under, the people on it risk their lives to provide us with the main source for energy and heat. The Merle Travis lyricÃ¢â¬Å"Where the dangers are double and the troubles are fewÃ¢â¬ completely captures the atmosphere of a coal mine.Slag falls, explosions, fires, and above all cave Ã¢â¬âins and roof falls are just a few of the dangers miners face every day, yet people still feel the need to condemn these men for the job they do. The Obama administration could care less about the many jobs they are doing away with from the coal industry. Ã¢â¬Å"The many regulations the he (President Obama), and his radical appointees and the U. S. EPA haves put on the use of coal have closed 175 power plantsÃ¢â¬ (Murray 2). Assume those 175 power plants employed 100 men that is 17,500 people who are out of work.How can Obama say he is for the working class when he is taking the working classÃ¢â¬â¢s jobs? Josh Mandel, Ohio state treasurer told Congress Ã¢â¬Å" I think the Obama administration should be ashamed for pu tting middle class coal miners out of work across the country. Coal miners and their families live in some of the poorest areas of the country and the Obama war on coal is killing jobs in the parts of America that can least afford it. Ã¢â¬ . Mandel is right. Obama and his administration are killing jobs and small mining towns all across the country and it must be stopped before they are gone.While running in his 2008 campaign, Obama told the San Francisco Chronicle that the Ã¢â¬Å"notion of no coalÃ¢â¬ ¦is an illusionÃ¢â¬ , but he added that he favored the Cap and Trade system. He then went on to say Ã¢â¬Å"so if someone wants to build a coal powered plant, itÃ¢â¬â¢s just that it will bankrupt them because they are going to be charged a huge sum for all the greenhouse gas that is being emittedÃ¢â¬ (Trinko 3) This statement sounds like someone who wasnÃ¢â¬â¢t in the slightest bit worried about the 385,105 miners who were directly employed by coal at the time. Trinko 2) thi s number didnÃ¢â¬â¢t include truck drivers, mine inspectors, power plant workers, railroad workers, or and other jobs that are affected by the coal industry. The Obama Administration has done everything it can possibly do to destroy the American coal industry. We have gone from producing 1. 2 billion tons of coal a year to producing somewhere in the neighborhood of 800 million tons (Trinko 3). It is disingenuous at best for Obama to say he supports the coal industry when we have lost about one third of our production.Joe Biden told gist. com that he didnÃ¢â¬â¢t see much of a role for clean energy in America, but then added that he wanted to help China clean their coal plants (Trinko 3). For the past 4 years, Obama and his administration have tried to end coal in America and it is time we take it back. Ryan Williams, Mitt RomanyÃ¢â¬â¢s spokesman said Ã¢â¬Å"Obama has waged a war on coal that has devastated the middle class and American WorkersÃ¢â¬ This is completely true. No , coal is not the way of life in Washington, D.C, but if the Obama Administration would look at the big picture, they would see that in America as a whole country, coal is a way of life in many states. Some of these states are Colorado, Wyoming, and every state in Appalachia. As election time draws near, the Romney Campaign is looking for ways to appeal to the coal miners, coal truck drivers, railroad workers, and others affected by the coal industry. Ã¢â¬Å"it is a narrow group of voters youÃ¢â¬â¢re looking at, but in those areas it is a big deal because it affects entire communities.It really is their whole livelihood. People who work in the coal industry and their family and friends will become single-issue voters this yearÃ¢â¬ , says Kristen Kukowski, secretary for the Republican National Committee. She is right. The coal industry is a livelihood, and had been bringing people together for centuries. Coal towns stick together, so if Romney gets in good with one small coal tow n, other towns are sure to follow. His approach to attract miners has had a positive effect and will continue to do so as long as Obama pushes his strict regulations.Jason Hayes, communications director for the American Coal Council says Ã¢â¬Å"the industry over the past few decades had invested over $100 billion in cleaning up emissions and itÃ¢â¬â¢s already been effective. All of the important noxious pollutants have decreased markedly over the last 30 to 40 years. WeÃ¢â¬â¢ve been doing all of this on top of dealing with everything else. Ã¢â¬ Coal may not be green, but it is a source of energy American needs. It is cheap and efficient. Without coal, America wouldnÃ¢â¬â¢t be anywhere near where it is today. The coal mined here isnÃ¢â¬â¢t just used for energy.AmericaÃ¢â¬â¢s coal makes steel. Steel is used for thousands of things. If coal is gone, not only will our electric and heat bills increase, but the price of steel with be outrageous. Ã¢â¬Å"The environmental benef its that weÃ¢â¬â¢re hearing about are questionable, but the job losses are real and they are happening to thousands right nowÃ¢â¬ Hayes adds. It is up to us to change the way things in America are going. This is our country, Not WashingtonÃ¢â¬â¢s. So in the 2012 Presidential Election, vote for the working class, vote for coal, vote for Romney! You could be the one vote it takes to make coal win.
Sunday, September 15, 2019
1-What are the roots of 3MÃ¢â¬â¢s culture of entrepreneurship and innovation? What were the key tenets of this culture as they emerged over time? 3M goes back to 1902 when five Minnesota businessmen established the Minnesota Mining and Manufacturing Co. to mine a mineral that they thought was corundum, which is ideal for making sandpaper. The mineral, however, turned out to be low-grade anorthosite, nowhere near as suitable for making sandpaper, and the company nearly failed. To try and salvage the business, 3M turned to making the sandpaper itself using materials purchased from another source.In 1907, 3M hired a twenty-year-old business student, William McKnight, as assistant bookkeeper. This turned out to be a pivotal move in the history of the company. The key to institutionalizing innovation at 3M has been the principle of Ã¢â¬Å"patient money. Ã¢â¬ The basic idea is that producing revolutionary new products requires substantial long-term investments, and often repeated fail ure, before a major payoff occurs. Another key component of 3MÃ¢â¬â¢s innovative culture has been an emphasis on duel career tracks.Right from its early days, many of the key players in 3MÃ¢â¬â¢s history, people like Richard Drew, chose to staying research, turning down opportunities to go into the management side of the business. Although 3MÃ¢â¬â¢s innovative culture emphasizes the role of technical employees in producing innovations, the company also has a strong tradition of emphasizing that new product ideas often come from watching customers at work. 2. What were the strengths of the organization and culture of 3M during the McKnight to DeSi-mone era? What were the potential weaknesses?Leadership, CEO George Buckley is highly respected, and 3M is repeatedly recognized as a top company for developing leaders. Innovation gets a load of these stats patents awarded researchers worldwide. In many ways, 3M was ahead of its time in management philosophy and human resource practi ces. Geographically diverse Sixty-three percent of sales are outside of the United States; the company has operations in more than 65 countries. Diverse in terms of revenue streams, too. 3M has six key business units, none of which account for more than 33% of sales. Financially, there was strong paid a dividend every quarter since 1916. Ã¢â¬â The expansion of 3M into international markets was highly successful. What explains this? What was the drawback with 3MÃ¢â¬â¢s international expansion strategy? The first steps abroad occurred in the 1920s. There were some limited sales of wet and dry sandpaper in Europe during the early 1920s. These increased after1929 when 3M joined the Durex Corp. , a joint venture for international abrasive product sales in which 3M was involved along with eight other U. S. companies. The international businesses were grouped into an International Division that Sampair headed.From the get go, the company insisted that foreign ventures pay their own wa y. The company would start by exporting to a country and working through sales subsidiaries. The philosophy can be reduced to several key and simple commitments: Get in early, Hire talented and motivated local people, Become a good corporate citizen of the country, Grow with the local economy, American products are not one-size-fits-all around the world, Enforce patents in local countries. Program to encourage new product and new business initiatives born outside the United States.By 1983, products developed under the initiative were generating sales of over $150 million a year. 3M Brazil invented a low-cost, hot-melt adhesive from local raw materials, 3M Germany teamed up with Sumitomo 3M of Japan to develop electronic connectors with new features for the world wide electronics industry. By the 1990s 3M started to shift away from a country-by-country management structure to more regional management. Drivers behind this development included the fall of trade barriers, the rise of tr ading blocks such as the European Union and NAFTA, and the need to drive down costs in the face of intense global competition.
Saturday, September 14, 2019
Ã¢â¬Å"WHAT DO YOU MEAN Ã¢â¬ËMISSING'?Ã¢â¬ I asked. Ã¢â¬Å"She was supposed to meet us a couple hours ago,Ã¢â¬ Eddie said, exchanging glances with Micah. Ã¢â¬Å"I thought maybe she was with you.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"I haven't seen her since PE.Ã¢â¬ I was trying hard not to kick into panic mode yet. There were too many variables at play and not enough evidence to start thinking crazy Moroi dissidents had kidnapped her. Ã¢â¬Å"This is a really big place Ã¢â¬â I mean, three campuses. Are you sure she isn't just holed up studying somewhere?Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"We've done a pretty exhaustive search,Ã¢â¬ said the security officer. Ã¢â¬Å"And teachers and workers are on alert looking for her. No sightings yet.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"And she isn't answering her cell phone,Ã¢â¬ added Eddie. I finally let true fear overtake me, and my face must have shown it. The officer's expression softened. Ã¢â¬Å"Don't worry. I'm sure she'll turn up.Ã¢â¬ It was the kind of conciliatory thing people in his profession had to say to family members. Ã¢â¬Å"But do you have any other ideas of where she might be?Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"What about your other brothers?Ã¢â¬ asked Micah. I'd been afraid it would come to that. I was almost one hundred percent sure she wasn't with Keith, but he should still probably be notified about her disappearance. It wasn't something I looked forward to because I knew there'd be a lecture in it for me. It would also be a sign of my failure in the eyes of other Alchemists. I should have stayed by Jill's side. That was my job, right? Instead, I'd Ã¢â¬â foolishly Ã¢â¬â been helping someone run errands. Not just anyone Ã¢â¬â a vampire. That's how the Alchemists would see it. Vamp lover. Ã¢â¬Å"I was just with Adrian,Ã¢â¬ I said slowly. Ã¢â¬Å"I suppose she could've somehow gotten to Clarence's and waited for him. I didn't actually go inside.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"I tried Adrian too,Ã¢â¬ said Eddie. Ã¢â¬Å"No answer.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"Sorry,Ã¢â¬ I said. Ã¢â¬Å"We were doing his interviews, so he must have turned his phone off. Do you want to try him again?Ã¢â¬ I certainly didn't want to. Eddie stepped aside to call Adrian while I talked with Mrs. Weathers and the officer. Micah paced around, looking worried, and I felt guilty for always wanting to keep him from Jill. The race thing was a problem, but he really did care about her. I told the officer all the places Jill liked to frequent on campus. They confirmed that they'd already checked them all. Ã¢â¬Å"You got ahold of him?Ã¢â¬ I asked when Eddie returned. He nodded. Ã¢â¬Å"She's not there. I feel kind of bad, though. He's pretty worried now. Maybe we should've waited to tell him.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"NoÃ¢â¬ ¦ actually, it might be a good thing.Ã¢â¬ I met Eddie's eyes and saw a spark of understanding. Adrian's emotions seemed to intrude on Jill when they were running strong. If he was panicked enough, she'd hopefully realize people were concerned and show back up. That was assuming she was just hiding out or had gone somewhere we couldn't find. I tried not to consider the alternative: that something had happened where she couldn't contact us. Ã¢â¬Å"Sometimes students just sneak off,Ã¢â¬ said the officer. Ã¢â¬Å"It's inevitable. Usually they try to sneak back in before curfew. Hopefully that's just the case now. If she doesn't show up then Ã¢â¬â well, then we'll call the police.Ã¢â¬ He walked off to radio the rest of security for a status check, and we thanked him for his help. Mrs. Weathers returned to the front desk, but it was clear she was worried and agitated. She came across as gruff sometimes, but I had the feeling she actually cared about her students. Micah left us to find a few friends of his who worked on campus, in case they'd seen anything. That left Eddie and me. Without conferring, we turned toward some chairs in the lobby. Like me, I think he wanted to stake out the door in order to see Jill the instant she showed up. Ã¢â¬Å"I shouldn't have left her,Ã¢â¬ he said. Ã¢â¬Å"You had to,Ã¢â¬ I said reasonably. Ã¢â¬Å"You can't be with her in classes or her room.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"This place was a bad idea. It's too big. Too hard to secure.Ã¢â¬ He sighed. Ã¢â¬Å"I can't believe this.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"NoÃ¢â¬ ¦ it was a good idea. Jill needs some semblance of a normal life. You could've locked her in a room somewhere and cut her off from all interaction, but what good would that do? She needs to go to school and be with people.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"She hasn't done much of that, though.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"No,Ã¢â¬ I admitted. Ã¢â¬Å"She's had a rough time with it. I kept hoping it'd get better.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"I just wanted her to be happy.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"Me too.Ã¢â¬ I straightened up as something alarming hit me. Ã¢â¬Å"You don't thinkÃ¢â¬ ¦ you don't think she would've run away and gone back to her mom, do you? Or Court or somewhere?Ã¢â¬ His face grew even more bleak. Ã¢â¬Å"I hope not. Do you think things have been that bad?Ã¢â¬ I thought about our fight after the shower incident. Ã¢â¬Å"I don't know. Maybe.Ã¢â¬ Eddie buried his face in his hands. Ã¢â¬Å"I can't believe this,Ã¢â¬ he repeated. Ã¢â¬Å"I failed.Ã¢â¬ When it came to Jill, Eddie was usually all fierceness and anger. I'd never seen him so close to depression. I'd been living with the fear of my own failure since coming to Palm Springs but only now realized that Eddie had just as much on the line. I recalled Adrian's words about Eddie and his friend Mason, how Eddie felt responsible. If Jill didn't come back, would this be history repeating itself? Would she be someone else he'd lost? I'd thought this mission might be redemption for him. Instead, it could turn into Mason all over again. Ã¢â¬Å"You didn't fail,Ã¢â¬ I said. Ã¢â¬Å"You've been in charge of protecting her, and you've done that. You can't control her happiness. If anything, I'm to blame. I gave her a lecture for the shower incident.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"Yeah, but I destroyed her hopes when I told her the modeling idea Lee had wouldn't work.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"But you were right about Ã¢â¬â Lee!Ã¢â¬ I gasped. Ã¢â¬Å"That's it. That's where she is. She's with Lee, I'm certain of it. Do you have his number?Ã¢â¬ Eddie groaned. Ã¢â¬Å"I'm such an idiot,Ã¢â¬ he said, taking out his cell phone and scanning for the number. Ã¢â¬Å"I should've thought of that.Ã¢â¬ I touched the cross around my neck, saying a silent prayer that this would all be solved easily. As long as it meant Jill was alive and well, I could've handled her and Lee eloping. Ã¢â¬Å"Hey, Lee? It's Eddie. Is Jill with you?Ã¢â¬ There was a pause as Lee responded. Eddie's body language answered the question before I heard another word. His posture relaxed, and relief flooded his features. Ã¢â¬Å"Okay,Ã¢â¬ said Eddie a few moments later. Ã¢â¬Å"Well, get her back here. Now. Everyone's looking for her.Ã¢â¬ Another pause. Eddie's face hardened. Ã¢â¬Å"We can talk about that later.Ã¢â¬ He disconnected and turned to me. Ã¢â¬Å"She's okay.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"Thank God,Ã¢â¬ I breathed. I stood up, only then realizing how tense I'd been. Ã¢â¬Å"I'll be right back.Ã¢â¬ I found Mrs. Weathers and the security officer and relayed the news. The officer immediately spread the word to his colleagues and soon left. To my surprise, Mrs. Weathers almost looked like she was on the verge of tears. Ã¢â¬Å"Are you okay?Ã¢â¬ I asked. Ã¢â¬Å"Yes, yes.Ã¢â¬ She turned flustered, embarrassed at being so emotional. Ã¢â¬Å"I was just so worried. I Ã¢â¬â I didn't want to say anything and scare you all, but every time a student's missingÃ¢â¬ ¦ well, a few years ago, another girl disappeared. We thought she'd just sneaked off Ã¢â¬â like Matt said, it happens. But it turned outÃ¢â¬ ¦Ã¢â¬ Mrs. Weathers grimaced and looked away. Ã¢â¬Å"I shouldn't be telling you this.Ã¢â¬ As if she could stop with that kind of intro. Ã¢â¬Å"No, please. Tell me.Ã¢â¬ She sighed. Ã¢â¬Å"The police found her a couple days later Ã¢â¬â dead. She'd been abducted and killed. It was terrible, and they never caught her killer. Now I just think of that whenever someone disappears. It's never happened again, of course. But something like that scars you.Ã¢â¬ I could imagine so. And as I returned to Eddie, I thought about him and Mason again. It seemed like everyone was carrying baggage from past events. I certainly was. Now that Jill's safety wasn't a concern, all I kept thinking was: What will the Alchemists say? What will my father say? Eddie was just hanging up his phone again when I approached. Ã¢â¬Å"I called Micah to tell him everything's okay,Ã¢â¬ he explained. Ã¢â¬Å"He was really worried.Ã¢â¬ All signs of Mrs. Weathers's past trauma vanished the instant that Jill and Lee walked through the door. Jill actually looked upbeat until she saw all of our faces. She came to a halt. Beside her, Lee already looked grim. I think he knew what was coming. Eddie and I hurried forward but didn't have a chance to speak right away. Mrs. Weathers immediately demanded to know where they'd been. Rather than cover it up, Jill confessed and told the truth: she and Lee had gone off campus, into Palm Springs. She was careful to make sure Lee didn't get accused of any kidnapping charges, swearing he didn't know she could only leave with approved family members. I confirmed this Ã¢â¬â though Lee was hardly off the hook in my opinion. Ã¢â¬Å"Will you wait outside?Ã¢â¬ I asked him politely. Ã¢â¬Å"I'd like to speak to you privately later.Ã¢â¬ Lee started to obey, flashing Jill a look of apology. He lightly brushed her hand in farewell and turned away. It was Mrs. Weathers who stopped him. Ã¢â¬Å"Wait,Ã¢â¬ she said, peering at him curiously. Ã¢â¬Å"Do I know you?Ã¢â¬ Lee looked startled. Ã¢â¬Å"I don't think so. I've never been here before.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"There's something familiar about you,Ã¢â¬ she insisted. Her frown deepened a few moments more. At last, she shrugged. Ã¢â¬Å"It can't be. I must be mistaken.Ã¢â¬ Lee nodded, met Jill's eyes in sympathy again, and left. Mrs. Weathers wasn't done with Jill. She launched into a lecture about how dangerous and irresponsible they'd been. Ã¢â¬Å"If you were going to sneak off and break rules, you could've at least confided in your siblings. They've been scared to death for you.Ã¢â¬ It was almost funny, her advising on Ã¢â¬Å"responsibleÃ¢â¬ rule-breaking. Considering how panicked I'd been, I couldn't find anything amusing just then. She also told Jill that she'd be written up and punished. Ã¢â¬Å"For now,Ã¢â¬ said Mrs. Weathers, Ã¢â¬Å"you are confined to your room for the rest of the night. Come see me after breakfast, and we'll find out if the principal thinks this warrants suspension.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"Excuse me,Ã¢â¬ said Eddie. Ã¢â¬Å"Can we have a few minutes alone here with her before she goes upstairs? I'd like to talk to her.Ã¢â¬ Mrs. Weathers hesitated, apparently wanting Jill's punishment immediately enforced. Then she gave Eddie a double take. The look on his face was hard and angry, and I think Mrs. Weathers knew there was punishment of a different sort coming from Jill's big brother. Ã¢â¬Å"Five minutes,Ã¢â¬ said Mrs. Weathers, tapping her watch. Ã¢â¬Å"Then up you go.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"Don't,Ã¢â¬ said Jill, the instant we were alone. Her face was a mixture of fear and defiance. Ã¢â¬Å"I know what I did was wrong. I don't need a lecture from you guys.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"Don't you?Ã¢â¬ I asked. Ã¢â¬Å"Because if you knew it was wrong, you wouldn't have done it!Ã¢â¬ Jill crossed her arms over her chest. Ã¢â¬Å"I had to get out of here. On my own terms. And not with you guys.Ã¢â¬ The comment rolled right off of me. It sounded young and petty. But to my surprise, Eddie actually looked hurt. Ã¢â¬Å"What's that supposed to mean?Ã¢â¬ he asked. Ã¢â¬Å"It means that I just wanted to be away from this place without you always telling me what I'm doing wrong.Ã¢â¬ That was directed to me. Ã¢â¬Å"And you jumping at every shadow.Ã¢â¬ That, of course, was to Eddie. Ã¢â¬Å"I just want to protect you,Ã¢â¬ he said, looking hurt. Ã¢â¬Å"I'm not trying to smother you, but I can't have anything happen to you. Not again.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"I'm in more danger from Laurel than any assassins!Ã¢â¬ Jill exclaimed. Ã¢â¬Å"Do you know what she did today? We were working in the computer lab, and she Ã¢â¬Ëaccidentally' tripped over my power cord. I lost half my work and didn't finish in time, so now I'm going to get a lower grade.Ã¢â¬ A lesson on backing up work probably wouldn't be useful just then. Ã¢â¬Å"Look, that's really terrible,Ã¢â¬ I said. Ã¢â¬Å"But it's not in the same category as getting yourself killed. Not by a long shot. Where exactly did you go?Ã¢â¬ For a moment, she looked as though she wasn't going to give up the info. Finally, she said, Ã¢â¬Å"Lee took me to Salton Sea.Ã¢â¬ Seeing our blank looks, she added, Ã¢â¬Å"It's a lake outside of town. It was wonderful.Ã¢â¬ An almost-dreamy expression crossed her features. Ã¢â¬Å"I haven't been around that much water in so long. Then we went downtown and just walked around, shopping and eating ice cream. He took me to that boutique, with the designer who's looking for models and Ã¢â¬â Ã¢â¬Å" Ã¢â¬Å"Jill,Ã¢â¬ I interrupted. Ã¢â¬Å"I don't care how awesome your day was. You scared us. Don't you get that?Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"Lee shouldn't have done this,Ã¢â¬ growled Eddie. Ã¢â¬Å"Don't blame him,Ã¢â¬ said Jill. Ã¢â¬Å"I talked him into it Ã¢â¬â I made him think you guys wouldn't mind. And he doesn't know the real reason I'm here or the danger.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"Maybe dating was a bad idea,Ã¢â¬ I muttered. Ã¢â¬Å"Lee's the best thing that's happened to me here!Ã¢â¬ she said angrily. Ã¢â¬Å"I deserve to be able to go out and have fun like you guys.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬ËÃ¢â¬ Fun'? That's kind of an exaggeration,Ã¢â¬ I said, recalling my afternoon with Adrian. Jill needed a target for her frustration, and I won the honor. Ã¢â¬Å"Doesn't seem like it to me. You're always gone. And when you aren't, you just tell me what I'm doing wrong. It's like you're my mom.Ã¢â¬ I'd been wading through all of this calmly, but suddenly, something about that comment made me snap. My finely tuned control shattered. Ã¢â¬Å"You know what? I kind of feel that way too. Because as far as I can tell, I am the only one in this group behaving like an adult. You think I'm out there having fun? All I'm doing is babysitting you guys and cleaning up your messes. I spent my afternoon Ã¢â¬â wasted my afternoon Ã¢â¬â driving Adrian around so that he could blow off the interviews that I set up. Then I get here and have to deal with the aftermath of your Ã¢â¬Ëfield trip.' I get that Laurel's a pain Ã¢â¬â although maybe if Micah had been warned off from the beginning, these problems with her never would've happened.Ã¢â¬ I directed that last comment at Eddie. Ã¢â¬Å"I don't get why I'm the only one who sees how serious everything is. Vampire-human dating. Your lives on the line. These aren't the kinds of things you can screw around with! And yetÃ¢â¬ ¦ somehow, you all still do. You leave me to do the hard stuff, to pick up after youÃ¢â¬ ¦ and all the while, I've got Keith and the other Alchemists breathing down my neck, waiting for me to screw up because no one trusts me since helping your pal Rose. You think this is fun? You want to live my life? Then do it. Step right up, and you start taking responsibility for a change.Ã¢â¬ I hadn't yelled, but my volume had certainly gone up. I'd pretty much delivered my speech without taking a breath and now paused for some oxygen. Eddie and Jill stared at me, wide-eyed, as though they didn't recognize me. Mrs. Weathers returned to us just then. Ã¢â¬Å"That's enough for tonight. You need to go upstairs now,Ã¢â¬ she told Jill. Jill nodded, still a little stunned, and hurried away without saying goodbye to any of us. Mrs. Weathers walked her to the stairs, and Eddie turned to me. His face was pale and solemn. Ã¢â¬Å"You're right,Ã¢â¬ he said. Ã¢â¬Å"I haven't been pulling my share.Ã¢â¬ I sighed, suddenly feeling exhausted. Ã¢â¬Å"You're not as bad as they are.Ã¢â¬ He shook his head. Ã¢â¬Å"Still. You might be right about Micah. Maybe he'll keep some distance if I talk to him, and then Laurel will lay off Jill. I'll ask him tonight. ButÃ¢â¬ ¦Ã¢â¬ He frowned, choosing his words carefully. Ã¢â¬Å"Try not to be too hard on Adrian and Jill. This is stressful for her, and sometimes I think a little of Adrian's personality is leaking into her through the bond. I'm sure that's why she ran off today. It's something he'd do in her situation.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"No one forced her to do it,Ã¢â¬ I said. Ã¢â¬Å"Least of all Adrian. The fact that she coaxed Lee and didn't tell us shows that she knew it was wrong. That's free will. And Adrian has no such excuses.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"YeahÃ¢â¬ ¦ but he's Adrian,Ã¢â¬ said Eddie lamely. Ã¢â¬Å"Sometimes I don't know how much of what he does is him and how much is spirit.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"Spirit users can take antidepressants, can't they? If he's worried about it becoming a problem, then he needs to step up and take charge. He has a choice. He's not helpless. There are no victims here.Ã¢â¬ Eddie studied me for several seconds. Ã¢â¬Å"And I thought I had a harsh view on life.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"You have a harsh life,Ã¢â¬ I corrected. Ã¢â¬Å"But yours is built around the idea that you always have to take care of other people. I was raised to believe that's necessary sometimes but that everyone still needs to try to take care of themselves.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"And yet here you are.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"Tell me about it. You want to come talk to Lee with me?Ã¢â¬ All apology vanished from Eddie's face. Ã¢â¬Å"Yes,Ã¢â¬ he said fiercely. We found Lee sitting on a bench outside, looking miserable. He jumped up when we approached. Ã¢â¬Å"You guys, I'm so sorry! I shouldn't have done it. She just sounded so sad and so lost that I wanted to Ã¢â¬â Ã¢â¬Å" Ã¢â¬Å"You know how protective we are of her,Ã¢â¬ I said. Ã¢â¬Å"How could you have not thought that this would worry us?Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"And she's a minor,Ã¢â¬ said Eddie. Ã¢â¬Å"You can't just take her away and do whatever you want with her!Ã¢â¬ I admit, I was a little surprised that the threat to Jill's virtue was what he chose to bring up. Don't get me wrong Ã¢â¬â I was also conscious of her age. But after he saw her literally die, it seemed like Eddie would be worried about more than making out. Lee's gray eyes went wide. Ã¢â¬Å"Nothing happened! I would never do anything like that to her. I promise! I'd never take advantage of someone so trusting. I can't ruin this. She means more to me than any other girl I've dated. I want us to be together forever.Ã¢â¬ I thought being Ã¢â¬Å"together foreverÃ¢â¬ was extreme at their ages, but there was a sincerity in his eyes that was touching. It still didn't excuse what he'd done. He took our lecturing seriously and promised there would never be a repeat. Ã¢â¬Å"But pleaseÃ¢â¬ ¦ can I still see her when you're around? Can we still do group things?Ã¢â¬ Eddie and I exchanged glances. Ã¢â¬Å"If she's even allowed to leave campus after this,Ã¢â¬ I said. Ã¢â¬Å"I really don't know what's going to happen.Ã¢â¬ Lee left after a few more apologies, and Eddie also returned to his dorm. I was walking upstairs when my phone rang. Glancing down, I was startled to see my parents' number in Salt Lake City on the caller ID. Ã¢â¬Å"Hello?Ã¢â¬ I asked. For a frantic moment, I hoped it was Zoe. Ã¢â¬Å"Sydney.Ã¢â¬ My father. My stomach filled with dread. Ã¢â¬Å"We need to talk about what's happened.Ã¢â¬ Panic shot through me. How had he found out about Jill's disappearance already? Keith jumped out as the obvious culprit. But how had Keith found out? Had he been at Clarence's when Eddie called Adrian? Despite his flaws, I couldn't imagine Adrian telling Keith what had happened. Ã¢â¬Å"Talk about what?Ã¢â¬ I asked, playing for time. Ã¢â¬Å"Your behavior. Keith called me last night, and I must say, I'm very disappointed.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"Last night?Ã¢â¬ This wasn't about Jill's disappearance. So what was it about? Ã¢â¬Å"You're supposed to be coordinating efforts for that Moroi girl to blend in. You aren't supposed to be out socializing with them and having a good time! I could hardly believe it when Keith said you took them out bowling.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"It was mini-golf, and Keith okayed it! I asked him first.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"And then I hear you're helping all these other vampires run errands and whatnot. Your duty is only to the girl, and that is to do only what's necessary for her survival Ã¢â¬â which I also hear you aren't doing. Keith tells me there was an incident where you didn't properly handle her difficulties in the sun?Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"I reported that immediately!Ã¢â¬ I cried. I'd known Keith was planning to use that against me. Ã¢â¬Å"Keith Ã¢â¬â Ã¢â¬ I paused, thinking about the best way to handle this. Ã¢â¬Å"Misunderstood my initial report.Ã¢â¬ Keith had blown off my initial report, but telling my father his protege had lied would just put my father's defenses up. He wouldn't believe me. Ã¢â¬Å"And Keith's one to talk! He's always hanging out with Clarence and won't say why.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"Probably to make sure he remains stable. I understand the old man isn't all there.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"He's obsessed with vampire hunters,Ã¢â¬ I explained. Ã¢â¬Å"He thinks there are humans out there that killed his niece.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"Well,Ã¢â¬ said my father, Ã¢â¬Å"there are some humans out there who catch on to the vampire world, those whom we can't dissuade. Hardly hunters. Keith's doing his duty by enlightening Clarence. You, however, are misguided.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"That's not a fair comparison!Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"Honestly, I blame myself,Ã¢â¬ he said. Somehow I doubted that. Ã¢â¬Å"I shouldn't have let you go. You weren't ready Ã¢â¬â not after what you went through. Being with these vampires is confusing you. That's why I'm recalling you.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"What?Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"If I had my way, it'd be right now. Unfortunately, Zoe won't be ready for another two weeks. The Alchemists want her to undergo some testing before she gets her tattoo. Once she does, we'll send her in your place and get youÃ¢â¬ ¦ some help.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"Dad! This is crazy. I'm doing fine here. Please, don't send Zoe Ã¢â¬â Ã¢â¬Å" Ã¢â¬Å"I'm sorry, Sydney,Ã¢â¬ he said. Ã¢â¬Å"You've left me no choice. Please don't get into trouble in your remaining time.Ã¢â¬ He disconnected, and I stood in the hall, my heart sinking. Two weeks! Two weeks and they were sending Zoe. And meÃ¢â¬ ¦ where were they sending me? I didn't want to think about it, but I knew. I needed to stop this from happening. Wheels were already in motion. The tattoos, I suddenly thought. If I could finish my tests on the stolen substances and find out info about the blood supplier, I would earn the Alchemists' regard Ã¢â¬â hopefully enough to take away the taint that Keith had put on me. And why had he done it? Why now? I knew he'd never wanted me along. Maybe he had just been biding his time, building up evidence against me until he could get me ousted in one fell swoop. I wouldn't let him, though. I'd bust open this tattoo case and prove who the stellar Alchemist was. I had enough evidence now to get their attention and would simply turn in what I had if nothing new came to light within a week. The decision filled me with resolve, but I still had trouble sleeping when I went to bed later. My father's threat hung over me, as did my fear of the reeducation centers. After about an hour of tossing and turning I finally dozed off. But even that was fitful and troubled. I woke up after only a few hours and then had to fall asleep all over again. This time, I dreamed. In the dream, I stood in Clarence's living room. Everything was neat and in place, the dark wood and antique furniture giving the space its usual ominous feel. The details were surprisingly vivid, and it was like I could even smell the dusty books and leather on the furniture. Ã¢â¬Å"Huh. It worked. Wasn't sure if it would with a human.Ã¢â¬ I spun around and found Adrian leaning against the wall. He hadn't been there a moment ago, and I had a flash of that childhood fear of vampires appearing out of nowhere. Then I remembered this was a dream, and these kinds of things happened. Ã¢â¬Å"What weren't you sure about?Ã¢â¬ I asked. He gestured around him. Ã¢â¬Å"If I could reach you. Bring you here into this dream.Ã¢â¬ I didn't quite follow what he meant and said nothing. He arched an eyebrow. Ã¢â¬Å"You don't know, do you? Where you are?Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"At Clarence's,Ã¢â¬ I said reasonably. Ã¢â¬Å"Well, in reality I'm asleep in my bed. This is just a dream.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"You're half right,Ã¢â¬ he said. Ã¢â¬Å"This is a spirit dream. This is real.Ã¢â¬ I frowned. A spirit dream. Since most of our information about spirit was sketchy, we had hardly anything on spirit dreams. I'd learned most of what I knew about them from Rose, who had been frequently visited by Adrian in them. According to her, the dreamer and the spirit user were actually together, in a meeting of the minds, communicating across long distances. It was hard for me to fully grasp that, but I'd seen Rose wake up with information she wouldn't have otherwise had. Still, I had no evidence to suggest I was really in a spirit dream now. Ã¢â¬Å"This is just a regular dream,Ã¢â¬ I countered. Ã¢â¬Å"Are you sure?Ã¢â¬ he asked. Ã¢â¬Å"Look around. Concentrate. Doesn't it feel different? Like a dreamÃ¢â¬ ¦ but not like a dream. Not quite like real life either. Call it what you want, but the next time we see each other in the waking world, I'll be able to tell you exactly what happened here.Ã¢â¬ I looked around the room, studying it as he'd suggested. Again, I was struck by the vividness of even the smallest details. It certainly felt real, but dreams often didÃ¢â¬ ¦ right? You usually never knew you were dreaming until you woke up. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, trying to still my mind. And like that, I felt it. I understood what he meant. Not quite like a dream. Not quite like real life. My eyes flew open. Ã¢â¬Å"Stop it,Ã¢â¬ I cried, backing away from him. Ã¢â¬Å"Make it end. Get me out of here.Ã¢â¬ Because in accepting that this really was a spirit dream, I'd had to acknowledge something else: I was surrounded in vampire magic. My mind was ensnared in it. I felt claustrophobic. The magic was pressing on me, crushing the air. Ã¢â¬Å"Please.Ã¢â¬ My voice grew more and more frantic. Ã¢â¬Å"Please let me go.Ã¢â¬ Adrian straightened up, looking surprised. Ã¢â¬Å"Whoa, Sage. Calm down. You're okay.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"No. I'm not. I don't want this. I don't want the magic touching me.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"It won't hurt you,Ã¢â¬ he said. Ã¢â¬Å"It's nothing.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"It's wrong,Ã¢â¬ I whispered. Ã¢â¬Å"Adrian, stop it.Ã¢â¬ He reached out a hand, like he might try to comfort me, and then thought better of it. Ã¢â¬Å"It won't hurt you,Ã¢â¬ he repeated. Ã¢â¬Å"Just hear me out, and then I'll dissolve it. I promise.Ã¢â¬ Even in the dream, my pulse was racing. I wrapped my arms around myself and backed up against the wall, trying to make myself small. Ã¢â¬Å"Okay,Ã¢â¬ I whispered. Ã¢â¬Å"Hurry.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"I just wanted to sayÃ¢â¬ ¦Ã¢â¬ He stuffed his hands in his pockets and glanced away uncomfortably before looking at me again. Were his eyes greener here than in real life? Or was it just my imagination? Ã¢â¬Å"I wanted toÃ¢â¬ ¦ I wanted to apologize.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"For what?Ã¢â¬ I asked. I couldn't process anything beyond my own terror. Ã¢â¬Å"For what I did. You were right. I wasted your time and your work today.Ã¢â¬ I forced my mind to dredge up memories from this afternoon. Ã¢â¬Å"Thank you,Ã¢â¬ I said simply. Ã¢â¬Å"I don't know why I do these things,Ã¢â¬ he added. Ã¢â¬Å"I just can't help it.Ã¢â¬ I was still terrified, still suffocating in the magic surrounding me. Somehow, I managed to echo my earlier conversation with Eddie. Ã¢â¬Å"You can take control of yourself,Ã¢â¬ I said. Ã¢â¬Å"You aren't a victim.Ã¢â¬ Adrian had been gazing off, troubled by his thoughts. He suddenly jerked his gaze back to me. Ã¢â¬Å"Just like Rose.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"What?Ã¢â¬ Adrian held out his hand, and a thorny red rose suddenly materialized there. I gasped and tried to back up farther. He twirled the stem around, careful not to prick his fingers. Ã¢â¬Å"She said that. That I was playing the victim. Am I really that pathetic?Ã¢â¬ The rose wilted and crumpled before my eyes, turning to dust and then vanishing altogether. I made the sign against evil on my shoulder and tried to remember what we were talking about. Ã¢â¬Å"Pathetic's not the word I'd use,Ã¢â¬ I said. Ã¢â¬Å"What word would you use?Ã¢â¬ My mind was blanking. Ã¢â¬Å"I don't know. Confused?Ã¢â¬ He smiled. Ã¢â¬Å"That's an understatement.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"I'll check a dictionary when I wake up and get back to you. Can you please end this?Ã¢â¬ The smile faded to an expression of amazement. Ã¢â¬Å"You really are that scared, aren't you?Ã¢â¬ I let my silence answer for me. Ã¢â¬Å"Okay, one more thing, then. I thought of another way I can get out of Clarence's and get some money. I was reading about college and financial aid. If I took classes somewhere, do you think I could get enough to live on?Ã¢â¬ This was a concrete question I could deal with. Ã¢â¬Å"It's possible. But I think it's too late. Classes have started everywhere.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"I found a place on the internet. Carlton. A college on the other side of town that hasn't started yet. But I'd still have to act fast, andÃ¢â¬ ¦ that's what I don't know how to do. The paperwork. The procedures. But that's your specialty, right?Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"Sad but true,Ã¢â¬ I said. Some part of me thought Carlton sounded familiar, but I couldn't place it. He took a deep breath. Ã¢â¬Å"Will you help me? I know it's making you babysit again, but I don't know where to start. I promise I'll meet you halfway, though. Tell me what I need to do, and I will.Ã¢â¬ Babysit. He'd been talking to Jill or Eddie or both. That was reasonable, though. He'd want to know that she was okay. I could only imagine how my tirade had been paraphrased. Ã¢â¬Å"You were in college before,Ã¢â¬ I said, recalling his record. I'd scoured it when putting together the ill-fated resume. Ã¢â¬Å"You dropped out.Ã¢â¬ Adrian nodded. Ã¢â¬Å"I did.Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"How do I know you won't this time? How do I know you aren't just wasting my time again?Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"You don't know, Sage,Ã¢â¬ he admitted. Ã¢â¬Å"And I don't blame you. All I can ask is that you give me another chance. That you try to believe me when I say I'll follow through. That you believe I'm serious. That you trust me.Ã¢â¬ Long moments stretched out between us. I'd relaxed slightly, without even realizing it, though I remained up against the wall. I studied him, wishing I was better at reading people. His eyes were that green in real life, I decided. I just usually didn't look at them so closely. Ã¢â¬Å"Okay,Ã¢â¬ I said. Ã¢â¬Å"I trust you.Ã¢â¬ Total shock filled his features. Ã¢â¬Å"You do?Ã¢â¬ I was no better at reading people than I had been ten seconds ago, but in that moment, I suddenly gained a flash of understanding into the mystery that was Adrian Ivashkov. People didn't believe in him very often. They had low expectations of him, so he did as well. Even Eddie had sort of written him off: He's Adrian. As though there was nothing to be done for it. I also suddenly realized that, as unlikely as it seemed, Adrian and I had a lot in common. Both of us were constantly boxed in by others' expectations. It didn't matter that people expected everything of me and nothing of him. We were still the same, both of us constantly trying to break out of the lines that others had defined for us and be our own person. Adrian Ivashkov Ã¢â¬â flippant, vampire party boy Ã¢â¬â was more like me than anyone else I knew. The thought was so startling that I couldn't even answer him right away. Ã¢â¬Å"I do,Ã¢â¬ I said at last. Ã¢â¬Å"I'll help you.Ã¢â¬ I shivered. The fear of the dream returned, and I just wanted this to be over. I would've agreed to anything to be back in my non-magical bed. Ã¢â¬Å"But not here. Please Ã¢â¬â will you send me back? Or end this? Or whatever it is?Ã¢â¬ He nodded slowly, still looking stunned. The room began to fade, its colors and lines melting like a painting left in the rain. Soon, all dimmed to black, and I found myself waking up in my dorm room bed. As I did, I just barely caught the sound of his voice in my mind: Thank you, Sage.
Abigail is the former mistress of John Proctor, and also the previous maid of the Proctor residence. Abigail is the niece of Revered Parris and attempted to practise witchcraft, only to be caught by her uncle. This lead to the arrival of several other characters to precede in the Salem witch trials, where Abigail and her friends act as witnesses. In the beginning of the play, she seems to be dishonest in admitting to witchcraft. When she talks to Parris, she attempts to use Tituba as a scapegoat. Ã¢â¬Å"But we never conjured spiritsÃ¢â¬ ¦ She always sings her Barbados songs, and we dance. Ã¢â¬ Abigail tells this to Parris to attempt to clear her name, as she and her friends are accused of witchcraft by the Reverend. She might be thinking that if she persuades her Uncle long enough, the civil blood between the two would make Parris believe that she is innocent, yet Parris is already concerned over the reputation she is getting from a remark that Elizabeth had supposedly made. Ã¢â¬Å"Ã¢â¬ ¦ she comes so rarely to church this year for she will not sit so close to something soiledÃ¢â¬ ¦ Ã¢â¬ This has one of the biggest in the opening Act as this sends a message to the audience of what AbigailÃ¢â¬â¢s character is based around, and what she is truly like. In my opinion, Miller describes AbigailÃ¢â¬â¢s character in this manner as he is trying to contrast her character with that of Elizabeth, in the sense of honesty, as how Elizabeth is described in a later discussion between Proctor and Danforth. Abigail is shown to be a sweet young woman, caring for her relatives. This is shown in the book, which would make you believe that she is innocent. However, in the film of Ã¢â¬Å"The Crucible,Ã¢â¬ Abigail is shown dancing at the beginning of the first segment. This changes your perspective of the character Abigail, due to the relatively bad thing she is performing, which back in those days and what many people believe even now to be a sin. Ã¢â¬Å"In her life sir, she never liedÃ¢â¬ ¦ my wife cannot lieÃ¢â¬ Therefore Abigail is said to lie a great deal, whilst Elizabeth hardly ever lies. Abigail is quick to change her attitude to the girls, intimidating them into a worrisome state. She speaks to her so called Ã¢â¬ËfriendsÃ¢â¬â¢ about the consequences of telling of the witchery they attempted to perform. She uses a natural power she has to strike terror in the hearts of her friends. She also shows how maniacal and ruthless she can be. Ã¢â¬Å"Let either of you breathe a wordÃ¢â¬ ¦ and I will come in the black of some terrible night and I will bring a pointy reckoning that will shudder you. Ã¢â¬ Abigail says this to her group of girls as she aims to strike fear in the eye of her followers, stating that if they were to betray her, she would come back and haunt them. And as she explains how she has seen murders occur before her very own eyes, she exclaims she is able to murder any victim she desires. This affects the audience, as in the beginning of the play, they observe a sweet, young lady transform so quickly into this vicious, desperate girl. I think Miller quickly turns Abigail into this enraged character as now the audience can see just how she really acts, behind the faces of her elders. He is successful in doing this as just a few minutes in the plays time before this, as she talks to Parris; she seems to be trying to show Parris of how considerate she is of his feelings by asking him to rest. Ã¢â¬Å"Uncle, youÃ¢â¬â¢ve prayed since midnight. Why do you not go down and -Ã¢â¬ He shows her speaking with Parris in a manor which a child would talk to their own parents, contrasting the way she talks to her friends, which I think in her opinion is people who she has power over. Miller attempts to show a classic stereotype of a distressed person in a forlorn situation when she is seen talking to her friends. Abigail does have a soft spot in her heart for one person Ã¢â¬â John Proctor. We, the audience hear that John and Abigail have had an affair. In Proctors mind, it is now clearly over between them. Ã¢â¬Å"IÃ¢â¬â¢ll not be cominÃ¢â¬â¢ for you no moreÃ¢â¬ But Abigail does not see their relationship this way, and thinks that they should be together. Ã¢â¬Å"Give me a word, John. A soft word. Ã¢â¬ She says this to entice him towards her, in a manner of flirtation. This affects the audience by letting them know who the one man Abigail is in love with is, and how she is willing to re-kindle her relationship with Proctor, even if it means to make Elizabeth a divorcee. I think Miller writes about Abigail in this way to show the audience just how her character resembles that of a stereotype of a young, spoilt girl who will do anything to get what she wants, but never what she deserves. Abigail becomes quick to hand the blame of practising witchcraft over to Tituba, whilst she and her friends knew that it was her lead the witchery into the stage of being Ã¢â¬Å"worshippers of Lucifer. Ã¢â¬ When Hale and Parris came to confront Abigail about the witchery, the pressure became too much for her, and blurted out the only persons name she thought she could get away with. Ã¢â¬Å"Did you call the Devil last night? Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"I never called him! TitubaÃ¢â¬ ¦ TitubaÃ¢â¬ ¦ Ã¢â¬ Hale and Parris are quick to believe the story of Abigail, calling for the presence of Tituba. But at the same they time, they do begin to fear the safety of Abigail from the Devil. Ã¢â¬Å"Have you sold yourself to Lucifer? Ã¢â¬ Ã¢â¬Å"I never sold myself! IÃ¢â¬â¢m a good girl! IÃ¢â¬â¢m a proper girl! Ã¢â¬ She probably done this to show all of her elders that she is a good Christian girl, and lied to protect herself from a punishment and to also save her UncleÃ¢â¬â¢s reputation as the towns Reverend. This shows just how ruthless Abigail can be, and to what lengths she would go to bring her own happiness, even if it meant causing pain and suffering to others. I think Miller done this to be constant in AbigailÃ¢â¬â¢s character, showing she can be deceiving and sly. This also shows throughout Act 1, Abigail has maintained a constant character. In the duration of Act Two, Abigail didnÃ¢â¬â¢t make an appearance, but she was, however, talked about a lot by the other characters, especially by the Proctors. It also appears that she tried to frame Elizabeth Proctor of witchcraft, by cleverly, yet deceivingly sticking a needle into her in the same position a needle was in ElizabethÃ¢â¬â¢s doll, acting as if ElizabethÃ¢â¬â¢s Ã¢â¬Å"poppetÃ¢â¬ was a voodoo doll. But this incident isnÃ¢â¬â¢t seen, but only talked about by Cheever to Hale, Proctor and Elizabeth.